“Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take a while. It’s normal to take a while. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.”
Eyes feeling heavy, still eager to write,
Crossing out nonsense and convincing myself this must, of course, be right.
No judgment, no criticism (who reads after all?),
Yet, at this very moment, I am hitting a wall.
Looking around for distractions of sort,
Frustrations arise, I then remind myself to be concise and short.
Freezing, melting, landing somewhere in-between,
A mind filled with heartbeats that could not have been foreseen.
This is all loud, and definitely clear,
Anticipating the moments that I once held dear.
Just when I realize the joy behind rhyming,
I wonder why I cannot find the time to find the right timing.
This is what happens when one cannot focus,
Don’t mind, this rubbish, this nonsense, it is simply atrocious.
I promise, next time I will actually say,
What I am feeling, needing, seeing, every second of every day.
I will take a picture of this and of me,
And in my mind I will try to foresee,
Your colors by season, need I a reason?
I think not and begin to wonder why this poem I have not ended,
Perhaps its because the sheer though of writing is splendid.
I then go back to my pen and my paper,
And am suddenly wishing these three ones would turn to vapor.
It is late and I will not make a wish nor will I recollect,
The thousands of times this will, and will always be less than perfect.
In fact, the clicking of ideas over fast moving tongue,
Makes little sense if any, shall I use the word “stung”?
I know ill look back and recall this mindless night of restless thought,
And one day, I’m sure I will come to appreciate the beauty of mere inkblots.
For now, momentarily, Ill remember this brilliance,
Even though, at this moment, all I seem to possess is a sense of fragile resilience.
Everyone has that something or someone that they turn to when the going gets rough. Some may turn to their favorite sport when there is nowhere to go. Some may cook, some may smoke, some may exercise, some may clean, some may sing, and others may paint, write, shop or cry. This “something”, on this particular day, happened to be photography.
I am by no means an expert in the realm of photography, but I do adore this realm. With fall being my favorite season, I took to the outdoors this lovely Saturday and tried my best to capture the last of summer and the beauty of fall with my new Canon G9.
To some, these pictures may seem meaningless or represent “nothingness”. This precisely, is what I love so much about photography. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
If you told me that it was possible to make peanut butter cookies with only three ingredients, I would probably assume they would be the worst tasting peanut butter cookies ever made. However, I have discovered one of the best peanut butter cookie recipes and I am very excited to share it.
I wish I could tell you that this is a top-secret family recipe, but I sadly cannot. What I can tell you is that Kraft’s What’s Cooking Magazine has the best recipes and this is exactly where this one came from.
“Super-easy pb & c cookies”
1 cup Peanut Butter
1/2 cup sugar
2 (or 3) milk chocolate bars (optional)
Yes, that’s it (okay, well i guess there are four ingredients…)
Preheat oven to 325°F. Mix first 3 ingredients with a spoon until well blended. Roll into 24 balls and place approximately 4 inches apart on a baking sheet.
Bake for ~ 17 min or until lightly brown (do not overbake!). Then gently press one chocolate square into the top on each cookie on the baking sheet. Cool 5 min and Enjoy!
As sad as I am to see summer pass us by, I must say that I am excited about shopping in the fall. In my mind, fall clothing collections are simply irresistible. The sweaters, the prints, the colors–love em’ all. What I have become especially excited about in the last couple of months is mixing different prints–prints which some may argue do not mesh well together at all. Lucky for those of us who are willing to change it up, mixing patterns and textures is the new big thing. In fact, this new “everything goes” look is being seen all over the runways and is said to be one of the biggest upcoming trends for fall 2011 and winter 2012.
For those of us who are willing to mix things up, we may actually be able to save some money shopping for “back to school” this fall. My suggestion? Simply look in your own closet! Patterns or pieces of clothing that you may have never dreamt of putting together, may actually work better than you think.
I totally get that it’s safer to reach for a plain top to go with a patterned skirt or pair of plaid pants, but why not try polka dots with floral prints? Or graphics with plaid? Even stripes with polka dots. Sound crazy? Kinda, but it sure is nice (and fun!) to change it up once in a while. Plus, you may actually be surprised how cute some of these patterns and textures look together.